abstraction through obfuscation
2013-07-29 - 3:10 a.m.
events::
3aug: made nunchaku. learned one step of a tai chi form. ran two miles. established an arbitrary point system for working out. cleaned apartment. bonked in the head by nunchaku.
4aug: game demo #2. decided to return to ninja card game idea. OERSF.
9aug: weekly blur. swing lessons. muay thai classes. learned to jump rope. eating real meals at work, instead of pizza every day. everyone seems a little too concerned about my lack of sexy hip motions.
11aug: Step-brother's wedding.
references::
Spaced: first two episodes of Spaced are shit, jump right into the third.
Many-Faced: "A Feast For Crows" (GoT:SoI&F#4) page 127.
thoughts::
buddy: someone you never turn your back on, ever. because they are the most likely ones to stab you in it if you do.
lack: something you want.
have: something you don't pay enough attention to.
lost: something now lacking because it was something you had.
luther: must be taller than goblyn. had to buy all new pants.
fate: i don't want to die alone. i'd rather be alone for now. death never comes at convenient times.
sunburn: i remember, a couple faces ago. it used to hurt for my skin to be separated from the rest. a memory of pain with no other details. must have lost all the nerves in my head. it will grow back, as it has before. except the hair.
relief: i've never been so happy to touch my toes. i laughed like a madman in the shower. which is what i was.
luther: all i ever wanted was for someone to believe in me. for 20 years jesus walked a wasteland of devils, unable to find someone silly enough to follow him down the rabbithole.
triple ratio: it�s all just a bit of hat. the world is plagued by a shortage of hats to tricks, and heads to hats. some men walk around wearing two or three, just to take up the slack.
hindsight: is 20/40. we should have just been buddies from the get-go. she was fun to hang out with, but when i tried to be romantic she'd shut me down, and if she ever put anything romantic down, i wasn't picking it up.
motivational poster: you have 0 puppies.
work: if i had been better at my job than i am now, i would be making myself redundant before a year from now. lucky for me i'm not that good of a programmer.
work: i have a zake number. no, more like, a zake# is what i AM. this is sort of a promotion...at school, i was just a #.
compartmentalization: the 13th defense mechanism. skin is known to do this when it is deeply charred. cut its losses. trees do it seasonally. in the auto insurance field, many states have moved away from the practice of blaming just one person completely for something which is referred to as an accident. everyone loves a good scapegoat.
dumabass stumbled through the monochrome forest, awash with the vibrant contrast of grey on grey. and everywhere, he was haunted by her lovely face. he stumbled. he cried. and he stumbled some more.
dreams:: this way never come. i haven't slept more than 4 hours without waking, since i moved out. when i wake, i keep expecting things to be different. i'm unnaturally optimistic like that.
